File looks thin. But when I printed the EA report out, there is actually a total of 13 pages!!! Well, a very minimal amount of amendments made for tomorrow's EA explains why...
Adeline was on MC today. Was thinking to myself, "Great... Will not be able to leave early already... Darlene have to leave early to do her last minute shopping... Rebecca have to go for her course... Jackie has a meeting to attend at 4pm..." But, after Jackie return from her meeting, it was exactly 5pm!!! YES!!! I was able to leave then...
Went to Suntec City's Giordano to buy a top, followed by a skirt at Iora. =) Then, walked over to Bugis. Spotted Francessca, Darlene and her boyfriend at the traffic junction of Shaw Tower. Managed to escape from their sight... I guess...
Was happily shopping in Bugis Junction while waiting for him when suddenly, I spotted them AGAIN!!! This time round, it was in Parco. They were talking about the v8 movie cafe which they just walked pass. I stood there for a moment. Then my legs just turn back and I walked away as hurriedly as I can. Wonder if they saw me then...
When he finally came, we just walked round Parco before heading to Swensen's for dinner. God must let me bump into them again!!! They were having dinner in a restaurant. When I spotted them, Francessca was at that point of time turning her head. Her back was facing us... Darlene was facing us... Guess this time round, they have seen me and him already. Thinking of a story to cook up for Darlene tomorrow...
Shared 2 plates of pasta, the seafood black pepper pasta and crayfish pasta. The seafood black pepper pasta was meant to be mine and the other was his. However, when his came, he did not like it at all. It was filled with tomato and he HATES tomato... Preferred mine then... Exchanged our plate of food then...
She messaged him. He showed me and explained how come she messaged him what she messaged. My mood was slightly dampened already. Tried to lift my spirits up and pretend nothing has happened earlier. However, as the night pass, I was getting more and more pissed. To the extend that I hurt him AGAIN...
As it was still early when we reached City Hall MRT station, I volunteered to walk him to Raffles Place MRT station. Throughout the walk, my head was facing the ground. No words was spoken at all. I was just in my own world, in my own thoughts... Do not know exaclty what I was thinking about... There were many things in my mind... I was feeling very lost... frustarated... angry... hurt... scared... I SO HATE MYSELF!!!
I suddenly felt that things may end there and then. There was no feeling of connection with him anymore... I could not feel the love that I have been feeling all along already...
I could not tolerate it anymore. Broke down at Raffles Place MRT station, while waiting for the MRT to arrive. He brought me to the other side to cool down and ask me what was wrong. Because of my father? My mother? Him? My answer was just a no. But deep down in my heart, I jolly well know the reason. It was for him, for me, for us...
Asked me to message him the reason for me crying when I reach home. I did just it. Then, went to wash my face. When I came out of the toilet, my handphone was ringing. I knew it is from him. But I did not pick up the call, continued to do my stuff first. After I settled down, I messaged him to say that I was in the toilet just now. Am waiting for his reply still...
I want to get a pair of footwear... earrings... pluck eyebrows (if I am still in time to do so. Everywhere seems to be fully-booked for the New Year already)...
I can see my money vanishing again without me realising it again. What is happening???
{&i'll hold on till the end of time-}
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